As I’ve been with my sister for the last week watching her go through so very much and noticing how she handles everything with such grace, a happy heart and kindness toward everyone, it is a testament to the person that she is.
Watching as she is being hooked up through her tri-fusion three pigtail central line – I am struck by her strong but scarred body. I notice her reconstructed breasts right below her thyroid removal scars, right below her chin that was ravaged by her lymphoma tumor. There is not one ounce of her being that has ever considered giving up or that she can’t fight this and win.
I am also filled with appreciation and love for the beautiful soul that donated her actual bone marrow for my superhero sister. That is one of the most selfless acts I have ever witnessed and I am humbled and forever thankful to her for saving Libby’ life. Being with Lib 24/7 is the biggest blessing for me. I don’t think I would be able to function in the real world not being able to keep my eye on her. It is one of the first times since my kids left the nest that I actually feel useful and know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. God worked this out for me starting with losing my job last March. He provides what you need when you need it and I look at that as a huge blessing.
In my heart I have surrendered everything to my God, and I am trusting Him with everything. No matter what happens I know he is there for me and I truly believe he is curing Libby. With Him by my side, I can handle anything – I just have to trust beyond my weak mind.